I got my ears pierced on Monday as well as my hair cut. (Pixie cut) There are very mixed opinions on it. Tomorrow's my 16th Bday and the day is perfect. I have art club after school where I can see some of my besties, then I have my private violin lesson. (I have an amazing teacher, love him. Future journal entry?) Then I can walk across the street to get a free bombers burritto!

Pep rallies are stupid and a waste of class time. We don't even have good looking cheerleaders. Orchestra does not need to be cut any shorter. I hope Julia tries out for the solo in chorus.

PSAT's were very easy, and I didn't study. I'm regretting not deciding to graduate early.

I need to start working out and regaining my flexibility; I plan to start up ballet again when I get a job.

I realized dating at this age is absolutely pointless--but this time it is actually stopping me from doing so. Although, I still have some feelings for an ex, it's just stress to distract you from school work. So I'm smart enough to just leave it be.

I'm in dire need of scholarship...College is so much money! I know I won't get one for my major, which is why I'm practically certain I'm getting stuck with art. Ican't perform in front of others, especially in auditions. I've discovered some of the reasons why, which even though this is an open blog, I'm not comfortable sharing.

Once again I'm questioning my friendships and whether they're sincere or even worth having them at all. Some of the class of 2012 sees me as melancholy, and I don't like them thinking this, but I realize my apathy makes it aparrent.

Lillierose has carpal tunnel and is evading her mother's pleas to get checked out for depression. I've been trying to hide it for her on and off since 7th grade. There are several Manic Depressives in my family, so I wouldn't be surprised AT ALL if it weren't a normal teen thing. I'm pretty damn good at hiding it. Even my close friends don't know.

At school, I discovered I'm known for my art. I'm not happy with this...at all. I want to be known for music, unfortunatly I don't see that happening. Thank you Doran.

I should be doing an essay right now and other various things.

I miss some random people. Namely, Joelle A & Rebecca K, Mike and Joe-el.

I want to go to group, but I don't want my parents to think I'm gay.


Ignorance is Bliss. I miss this.

All for now, if you actually read this all, I'm surprised. Thanks?